Thursday, December 27, 2007

back from the airport

Sent my parents to the airport tonight. On the way back, it started raining. The rain has now turned into snow.

I am alone by myself finally, after a long six months. I have been looking forward to being alone. Being alone and feeling lonely are two different things. I want to be alone but at the same time I feel lonely... not so much because of no one being in the house but me, but because of the reemergence of loneliness that has been lying deep within me. Part of me is missing. Cloud 9 has disappeared from my dictionary. Could find no more. And I should just quit searching.

Friends will be coming Friday and Saturday and will stay for the weekend. There will be laughter in the house to fill the void. I am looking forward to that.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Don't feel lonely because the holiday season is filled with love, joy, and care.

Cheers! Get ready for the countdown!
-WittyBB

Jasper222 said...

wish u a peaceful and joyful holiday~

Anonymous said...

I guess you needed this private moment for yourself so I am not going to say anything wishful but hope that you can get over with it.

Anonymous said...

It's good to be alone sometimes. I miss so much to be alone and private also. We can feel lonely even with a crowd. Maybe, we should learn to cope with loneliness and enjoy being alone. It's just a state of mind after all...