Bad bad weather

Worse weather I've ever seen in my life and I was driving through it tonight. I've seen snow storm... ice/wintry mix... but man.. this was just amazing. 50 mph wind... blowing snow. On the highway, visibility was almost zero. You know what though... I am glad I made the trip tonight coz on the way back I picked up someone who was stranded on the interstate. He was walking on the shoulder and waving and shouting "help" ... I stopped and he hopped in. Man, if he stayed out there 15 more mins... he could have gotten frost-bite and seriously hurt.

Update

Had a great trip to California. Gotta see my god daughter. Have to catch up with work now. Will post something soon.

the monday morn

A hug and embrace,
a kiss on the cheek,
a squeeze of the held hand...
make just about everything worth it.

TGIF

feel good this morning though I only had less than 4 hours of sleep last night. got in the office 8 o'clock sharp. since our office manager is not in, I have to man the phone and everything. quiet day. almost everyone is out of the office. I am looking forward to the weekend. TGIF

My fortune cookie says...

Sometimes travel to new places leads to great transformation.

PE

I passed my PE exam! I am now officially a Professional Engineer! :)

Happy New Year

Albeit a day late, Happy New Year!

I had a great time with friends over the weekend. The New Year's Eve party was great as well.

New Year... renewed hope.

Weekend

Our After-Christmas Gathering started yesterday. Friends from the college years come and stay at my place for the weekend. We had lunch in Chinatown yesterday and also got food for hot pot there. The hotpot last night was nice.... we got lots of vegetables, tofu... seafood... and mushrooms and fishball ... We were all so full at the end and didn't even have dessert (ice-cream and/or "soup ball"). This morning I made congee with the leftover rice and food from hotpot. It was pretty good. Also made a guacamole dip which turned out pretty good as well. We will go have the seafood buffet tonight at Schaumburg.

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On another note, I am utterly confused and not knowing what to do. My logical mind tells me one thing and my emotional mind says another. I don't like it. Why? Why do I have to go through this?

butterflies

I heard your goodbye again.

Take That - Holding Back The Tears

I kinda keep asking myself many questions
Where do I go from here
I seem to keep losing track of time
And how long it's been
Since I last had you near
Been a painful road to a door that's closed
Been a gamble that I knew I couldn't win
Been a lonely conversation to this photograph of you
In the mirror there's a sign I must give in
So I'm not holding back the tears anymore
Trying to escape the heartache
Trying to escape emotion
So I'm not holding back the tears anymore
Yesterday's my memory
Reminding me of all the times that I depended on you
I used to enjoy spending time on my own here
Watching the jaded people past
Now here I am sharing their pain and their lonely tears
And walking a road of broken glass
It's never been easy
It's a constant fight to get through each day and night
It's a war between the present and the past
And the face that's in your mind every time you close your eyes
What's the reason?
What's the answer?
How long will this last?
So I'm not holding back the tears anymore
Trying to escape the heartache
Trying to escape emotion
So I'm not holding back the tears anymore
Yesterday's my memory
Reminding me of all the times that I depended on you
Been a long long time
Since I heard your last goodbye
Still I hear it clearly every day and night
What's the point in love when you have to give it up
But still you need it and it's no where you can find
So I'm not holding back the tears anymore
Trying to escape the heartache
Trying to escape emotion
So I'm not holding back the tears anymore
Yesterday's my memory
Reminding me of all the times that I depended on you
Holding back the tears anymore
Trying to escape the heartache
Trying to escape emotion
No I'm not holding back the tears anymore
Yesterday's my memory
Reminding me of all the times
That I depended on
You...
Please...Will You open the door again

back from the airport

Sent my parents to the airport tonight. On the way back, it started raining. The rain has now turned into snow.

I am alone by myself finally, after a long six months. I have been looking forward to being alone. Being alone and feeling lonely are two different things. I want to be alone but at the same time I feel lonely... not so much because of no one being in the house but me, but because of the reemergence of loneliness that has been lying deep within me. Part of me is missing. Cloud 9 has disappeared from my dictionary. Could find no more. And I should just quit searching.

Friends will be coming Friday and Saturday and will stay for the weekend. There will be laughter in the house to fill the void. I am looking forward to that.

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas! Wish you a great holiday season and a Happy New Year!

trip to Indy

Came to Indianapolis this afternoon. Will be staying here at my friends till Christmas day. Went to a party tonight and had a white elephant gift exchange. I got a $25 barnes and noble gift card for a pair of $2 glass! Not bad huh? We all got the better gifts. ;) Hotpot for tomorrows dinner. Kinda looking forward to it. Will be playing games tomorrow all day. Wii and stuff I guess.

I'm glad to be here. Nice to be with more ppl during the holiday.

Seizure Boy

I have a new nickname now, other than "lame retard." Last night at TGI Fridays, the waitress gave me the salt and pepper shakers and asked me to hold one in each hand. As everyone was clapping and "singing," I was supposed to dance along. And being a good sport, I did what I was told. The consequence was that now I am called the "seizure boy.''

december 19th

I guess I had a little too much to drink tonight. Three white russians and two singapore slings. I am happy but with a hint of sadness. The alcohol seemed to cure the headache and lightheadedness I had all day. It was fun to hang out with colleagues at work. We have a great group at work. I am really hopeful about the future of the company.

I hope the sadness will go away soon. I miss her. I do. A happy birthday from her made me miss her even more. I shouldn't be. I know. Time is the best medicine. This is probably the only time that I hope time passes by a little quicker.

Letting go

To let go
is really to avoid,
to avoid seeing, hearing,
and any sensory connection,
to eliminate,
to destroy,
and to assimilate the void and emptiness
into your own existence.

simpson the snowman

Snow started Saturday, oh actually Friday night I think. So Saturday morning, mom made a tiny little snowman on the window sill. Trust me it was a tiny snowman. It looks huge in the picture... I know... just an illusion. I took the picture inside through the window pane with my iphone. As I was emailing the pic to jasper, I realized snowman looked so much like simpson. And I swear my mom probably never watched the simpsons. Kinda funny.

So the snow never stopped falling until Sunday morning. A good 10 inches was accumulated overnight. There was a line of cars, me included, lining up at the driveway at the church this morning waiting to get in, as the snowplows were working hard clearing the parking lot. Only a handful of ppl showed up at church this morning because of the snow. We had the cantata and I had a little solo part in it. The songs in the cantata weren't all that easy. But in the end, everything went well and we pulled it together.

Went out with a friend tonight and had dinner at Isabella's in Geneva. I was pleasantly surprised by how nice the downtown area is at Geneva. Little shops... and many restaurants... we stopped by Fox Valley Winery.... Their Riesling was really good and I bought 2 bottles. I got another bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon and Petite Sirah mix (quite good as well). The food at Isabella was ok, not as good as I had expected. Mediterranean food... something different. It was a nice and relaxing evening... even with driving in drifting snow.

a ripple

in the reflection of my mind
I see your sweet smile
inducing a ripple
not of the day
but of my heart
you have created a ripple
that never ceases to travel
that never seems to decrease in amplitude
a ripple that causes me
to ponder
to dream
and to wonder
till the day has gone by
even without my noticing it

~~~~~

ripple no more
but a quiet, peaceful heart

Enough :>

Thanks Lillian for forwarding the video on facebook.

A couple of FACTS

FACT Number One:

There are three times as many Mondays as there are Fridays.

As it says so on my coffee mug in front of me.

FACT Number Two:

Wednesdays are second to the worst day of the week.

As I would call Wednesday the limbo day where the end of the week is near yet so far away.